In this dream, I am shown one of my fears-not being able to escape old patterns of behavior and thinking, and having it sabotage my life.

In the dream, I was helped to escape an abusive marriage by friends and family.  They brought me to their house where they lived together as a group.  There were at least two men, one of whom was very large, black, and built like a professional weight-lifter.  I was especially close to him and already on the verge of accepting him as my next husband.  He stayed by my side and kept an eye on me.  His best friend was a tall, thin white man.  Everywhere the black man went, the white man followed.  I felt safe with this group and tried to settle in.  I stepped into the kitchen to get a drink and happened to look out the window.  I saw one of the women of the group who had short dark hair stepping out to her car.  I happened to look beyond her and saw my abusive husband just getting out of his car.  He was going to try to get me.  I was immediately terrified, as I knew he would be quite cruel and beat me, perhaps even kill me.  I must have screamed, as the black man immediately came to me with the white man right behind him.  I was panicking and ready to just run for it.  He saw this, grabbed me by arms and asked me what was wrong.  I told him and he calmly said, “Don’t worry.  We won’t let him take you.”  I felt calmer and believed him but was still quite scared. The white man had run outside to head off my husband as soon as he heard.

The divorce represents my changing a particular thought pattern/behavior that has brought difficult, hard results.  I have let go of it and accepted new thinking/behavior patterns that seem much more harmonious and peaceful.  One of these patterns of thinking is especially strong to me and will be my primary way of solving issues/problems.  This is represented by the large, protective black man who will be my next husband.  He stands for hidden truths within myself revealed to me by God that I am finally willing to embrace.  His friend, the white man, represents the spiritual truths which I know consciously.  I use spiritual truths I already know and accept, and rely on God’s revealed “inner mysteries” to handle problems and issues.  Before I relied on faulty thinking and behavior, but I am working hard to change that and rely on God and his truths to guide me and keep me safe.   But I am afraid I won’t be able to keep to my new thinking, and will fall back into the old thinking.  I am assured this won’t happen as long as I rely on the new thinking.